what if...


i hadnt come to NUS.

i hadnt applied for architecture.

i hadnt agreed to dance for sangae.

i hadnt slacked off so much in my first year.

i hadnt compromised family for school.

i hadnt gotten drunk all those times

i hadnt been so "friendly".

i hadnt placed so much trust in people.

i hadnt decided to commit to Dhool.

i hadnt called it quits.



what if.


i hadnt taken things into my hands.

i had waited for someone to step in.

i had depended on the world to save me.

i had simply given up when it seemed too much.

i had allowed my fears to consume me.

i had weakend under the pressure.

i had broken down.




what if i had let it all pass me by?





if i had.

i would be standing here wondering why.







are you wondering why?