you ask me why i cry.
why i shed these senseless tears.
and i know not how to answer.
and i know not how to respond.


what am i supposed to say?


am i supposed to tell you
how much you mean to me?
or should i tell you
how im so afraid?

should i tell you how
im afraid to lose you?
or should i tell you how
im afraid you'll leave me?

how can i put into words
how truly happy you make me feel?
and how i know that i
can never make you as happy as she?

am i supposed to tell you
how i fear that
each moment i have with you
will be my last?

or am i supposed to tell you
how everytime you brush the hair off my face
or hold my hand in yours
i imagine something that is not there?

am i supposed to say
that i know there is no future?
no place for me in your heart
because you've already given it to her.

or am i supposed to say
that im gonna miss you?
miss you when you're here
and miss you when you're gone.

how do i tell you
that i know we're a lie?
a false hope that i know
will never be.


how do i say it all
when i know.


when i know that when you say
"i love you"
is not the same as when i say
"i love you"


how then do i tell you
the reason for my tears?